Has someone ever told you something about yourself, and you thought, or said, “No, I don’t do that” or “I’m not like that.”
That happened to me yesterday and I was so shocked. I know it’s happened before in my past but I never really thought about it. There I go not thinking again. Anyway for the last 3 days it has been raining here, not just raining, like this amazing downpour rain. Also thunder and lightning – it’s been just awesome. Since we live on an ocean front desert there isn’t alot of rain. Just 12 inches a year although only a few miles away is literally the wettest spot on the earth 445 inches or rain a year! It’s really very cool and very spiritual somehow.
The reason the weather is such a fun, exciting, interesting thing is because where I come from, my whole entire life, the weather was a constant source of complaints. Everybody complains about the weather in New England and why not it’s not really that great. There is even this old saying, “If you don’t like the weather in New England wait a minute.” The other old saying is “there are 2 season in New England, winter and August”. You only get a few truly fantastic days in the year.
So I grew up in this environment. Steeped in complaining If it’s not the weather it’s the roads or the bad drivers or the Red Sox or whatever. It’s like Rosanne Rosanna Danna’s mother always used to say, ” It’s always something,” So that’s why I was so surprised when Mark said to me yesterday, “You don’t complain.” This really shocked me, I said, “Yes I do. I complain all the time.” He just shock his head.
I was relating a story to him about someone who complains all the time and I said, “I mean, I know I complain too but this is really constant complaining.” And then he told me that I don’t complain and I was like what’s wrong with this guy, does he see me through rose-colored glasses, for crying outloud he announces to the whole world that I am fabulous all the time. I am starting to think he really believes it. 🙂 This starts me thinking. (I always think way more during the MKMMA classes, it’s such a good thing.) So I think about this, why does he think I don’t complain. So I ask my kids what do they think. Same reaction, “Mom you never complain”, my oldest thinks I should complain more!!! Ok, I’m really thinking WTF is going on, who is this person I am looking back at from the glass. And it comes to me, you know what – I am complaining, all the time, except it’s inside my friggin head.
Holy Crap! I realize that all this negative complaining is going on alot but I just don’t actually say anything outloud. Oh my gosh, I am telling you I am blown away by this, and even though I have been on the wacky, wonderful mental diet I didn’t see this behavior as negative. I was just ruminating in my head about the things that hurt me, the sciatic, the lower back, the shoulder, a headache, all this work I have, my husband’s annoying habits (not bad, he’s a joy), the computer running to slow, my battery dying on my phone, the sandy, muddy footprints from all the rain that I am going to have to clean up, the trash not taken out, on and on and on.
My only explanation is that because these things only effected me I didn’t say them out loud and in turn that it isn’t negative thinking. About that I’m not even really sure. I didn’t see these constant little, tiny, internal complaints as negative. But they are and just because I am not trash talking someone or overtly being negative about a situation doesn’t mean it’s OK. ETERNAL VIGILANCE. Every moment of everyday forever I have to be on guard not to let anything, nothing, not one single negative thought into my subconscious.
This truly explains the poverty in the world, not just financial but spiritual, health poverty. Why aren’t we taught how important, so vitally important our thinking is. There are skills taught for everything else under the sun from needle point to networking marketing. I am/was conforming to the thought processes that has always been a part of me because no one gave me the skills of thinking. Not anymore. I’m on the case!
Let’s spread the word far and wide and effect change everywhere and with everyone we can. Shout from the roof, we need to learn how to think for ourselves the right way. Let’s use little Rachael Carbo as an inspiration to change the world. Let’s teach every little child how to think correctly and that way change the world.
I mean this is what we are trying to do here, with the class. I know we are offering really generous compensation, but really what is the reward here. We teach you some stuff, some great stuff, we show you how to expose other people to it and then you decide whether or not you want to share it, once you have experienced it. But really what are we doing here, we ARE changing the world. Maybe it’s only 1 family, or 1 sweet, precious little girl at time but what does that matter. An ant can eat a lion one bite at a time.
I believe it’s an honor to be able to present the course to anyone, we are lucky to have it and share it – we aren’t the only ones who get blessed by it. Just imagine the change we can effect.
Blessings & Believe,